Who am I becoming through this?

Dharma Talk

What does it mean to become whole and in harmony? Is it to feel open, spacious, to move with purpose?  

People and experiences come into our lives for reasons, a divine reason even. Symbolic currents are a part of my dialogue with my spiritual side. They are a way I hope to remember what truly matters. At work this past week, I found a silver ring every day. When I found the second one, I thought it was the same ring reappearing in different rooms, but no, I collected three. My current symbolic mystery appears again. I'm always paying attention to patterns; my attention is activated. Something is circling back. I'll continue to listen more deeply and let you know what, if anything, materializes from the rings.

When I was 19 years old, I was searching for the meaning of life. I read "Celestine Prophecy," the book that put words to my deep yearning for more. It showed me that many of us are on a spiritual journey. If you haven't read it, it is a must!

We go about our business day to day, and then something arrives that redirects or wakes us up. It seems to happen when everything is going great, and I'm feeling pretty good. Ugh, then life reminds you where there is light, there is also shadow. Inflammation shows up in our cell tissue; maybe resentment gets seeded in us biologically, a relationship falls apart.

Chronic instability, guarding, or threat signaling in the body can influence inflammation, create depression, anxiety, sickness. We are asked to digest more experiences. Maybe that story of belonging, or your old friend betrayal. Be awake, be present to what is becoming.

I'm guilty of not keeping promises with myself or not honoring my word with myself. I go against myself time and time again. In a meditation a few years ago, I received a gift of a harmonica. I blew it off for some mind-created gift. The last thing I could see myself playing was the harmonica; I was clearly taking it too literally. I even purchased all sorts of musical tuning things.

I knew I needed to find harmony but didn't know where. Only recently has the harmonica made more sense. The last two weeks or so, I've been thinking about my inner harmony. I'm learning that this inflammation probably took decades to show up, and it will take some time to make harmony within. I'm doing the inner work of being instead of doing, receiving instead of caring, trusting instead of controlling, belonging instead of proving. Thank you for being a part of the unfolding of wisdom with me. Let's continue to listen to each other and stay connected. Those thoughts you think are only your own are clearly not. There is a deeper calling and remembering. The next time you are in yoga class, trust that what is supporting you is enough, let it be a place where strength and softness meet. Yoga Sutra 2.47 Prayatna Saithilya Ananta Samapattibhyam. By relaxing effort and meditating on the infinite, the posture is mastered.

Carl Jung would not ask, "Why did this happen to me?" He would ask, "Who am I becoming through this?"

Jordan Flesher said, "Loving yourself is the medicine that you are seeking."

Scheduled Classes

• Appreciate everyone setting up closer to the Turtle Club and not blocking the entrance of the condos.

• Bring a large blanket; yoga blocks are always helpful. Please keep an eye on the weather. No class is there is rain and the temperature is below 50 degrees. When in doubt text your teacher and or check facebook.

Sunday - Restorative and Renewal Alex

Monday - Yogalates Sheila

Tuesday - Fascia Release Sheila (bring myofascial balls if you have and/or yoga blocks)

Wednesday - Hatha Flow Lo

Thursday - Vinyasa Flow Alex (subbing for Jen)

Friday - Inner Sovereignty Flow Lo

Sunday - Restorative and Renew Alex

Keep Opening with Love,

Laura Fortunata Grabinski